New layout! =)

I've changed my layout. Thanks to suckmylolly.com!

Felt like it was about time.

Not that I didn't like the previous one, but it's just that I wanted to change it. =)

And also I didn't want to study and was just busy wasting time, so why not?

Tell me what you guys think about it, yea?

=)

That's how my desk in the library looked like everytime i went to study. Notes would be everywhere, highlighters always on hand. Hahahaha.

I am so glad that the three hardest papers i have are over and done with!!!!!!!!!!!

I was afraid i was going to fail the papers (I've even begin rearranging my timetable for the upcoming semesters in my head in case i did fail -____-) but Thank God the papers weren't so bad.

I think i've done enough to pass. Hehehe. My next paper's in 10 days, so i'm kinda taking a breather right now cause it's been like quite mad la these couple of weeks.

But then again, even though I've been studying like crazy, I've also seen a few shows over these couple of weeks.

Like about two weeks back, I went to this show called Cirque Balagan Extravaganza at the KL Convention Centre. I'm a HUGE fan of all these Cirque de Soleil-esque shows that when my dad said his patient wanted to give him complementary tickets to the show, I was like "YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!"

I was sooooo happy. And they were absolutely amazing!!!! I don't know why, but I find that circus/acrobatic acts so intriguing. And the best part is, the Cirque Balagan show was choreographed by the same person who choreographed Cirque de Soleil. Hey, it's the closest thing I'll ever get to seeing a Cirque de Soleil show live. And it was free! Hahahahaha. *contented sigh*

Oh, I also saw P.Ramlee the musical last Saturday. That was a really good one, too. But it was a bit too long la. It started at like 8.45 and there was a 20-minutes intermission between the acts, but it finished like close to 12. I was a bit tired la afterwards. Dah la had to study for the exams during the day. Oh, and the guy playing P.Ramlee looked so much like the real P.Ramlee it's almost uncanny!

Right now I'm waiting to see if my dad is able to get the tickets for Beauty and the Beast!!!!

Ooooooohhhh, and by the way, my room got a total makeover. It's now painted red! Me likey!


Now finally the room matches the furniture. hahahahaha. I'm so happy! =)

Quickie update!

I know I haven't blogged lately.

I've been too busy studying! So menyakitkan hati. The Monash library is like my second home now. Urgh.

And everytime I come back from Monash, I malas want to blog cause the only thing I'll blog about is how I have been studying everyday and how scared I am about the exams.

By the way, I had my first paper today.

I seriously thought I was ready for the time. I was like "Hit me with your best shot, I'm ready!"

But then there's this one question that absolutely baffled me. And my confidence level just dropped. Rawr.

Wargh. So annoying!!!!!!

I got so fed-up with the paper, that after the paper, even though I planned to study, I crashed my friend's place and slept for like 2 hours before going back home. Hahahaha. It was nice to sleep during the rain!

I hope I do well for the paper. I tried my best. And i managed to finish everything! =)

Oh well. Now I have to concentrate on my two killer papers n 10th and 11th. Super worrying.

And dah la yesterday the bloody petrol price went up. By 78 cents! Now it costs like 40% more to go to Monash. Which means that even in the Vitara, I'm spending about RM25 a day. Can you just imagine, RM50 can only get you about 18 litres of fuel now? And worst part is, my dad said they're going to gradually sell the petrol at market price, which is at RM4 per litre. -__________-

I don't need the extra stress (and the extra expenses that go with it!) right now!!!! I am soooo nto looking forward to the future.

Man, this sucks. Such bad timing okay.

Okay, I better go sambung studying now.

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

DAVID COOK WON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!!!

Me loves my David Cookie! He sooo deserved to win (even though he wasn't so good during the finale!). Oh well, he still won by 12 MILLION votes, but who's counting? ;-)

Go Cookie!!!!

Oh, and I have started to study for my exams.

I don't mind exams, but I hate Accounting Info System. Dahla stupid unit has no bloody past years that I can bloody refer to, which makes me bloody annoyed.

I mean, why do I have to know how to read Data-Flow Diagrams and Flowcharts if I'm going to be an accountant? I thought doing Computing back in A-Levels was horrible enough. Didn't know it will come back to haunt me after 2 years. -_________-

Luckily some parts of the units (where we actually use Microsoft Excel instead of learning theories about God knows what) is not so bad for me because I use Microsoft Excal like every week for my Econometrics major, so at least I understand that. Too bad that's only 1/3 of the whole unit. 8 units are pure theories. Haih.

And I am so glad I'm not taking Finance as my major. I've been put off Finance for life after being forced to take Financial Management cause both Accounting and Finance majors are supposed to take this and the AIS units.

Dah la the exams are like next to each other. Financial Management on the 10th, AIS on the 11th.

You know what? I had to actually force myself to go and study in uni on a Saturday because I know I wouldn't be studying had I stayed at home. And I had to study.

It was okay la studying in uni cause there weren't a lot of people in the library just now.

I'm actually planning on going to uni everyday to study until the 11th of June because there is just so much to study and I waste a lot of time at home. (But then again, I did end up sleeping in the library for half an hour yesterday. Whoops.)

See me no life. Boohoo.

Oh yeah, and about the tremor thing in the previous post, what happened was this:

It was like 10 something on Monday, and I was chatting with Ine I think when I suddenly felt like something was shaking. At first I thought Anis was shaking the table or something like that.

So I asked her, quite nonchalantly la, "Eh, did you feel some shaking?"

and she was like, "Yeahhhh..."

And I asked her, "You sure you didn't shake the table?"

And she gave me this one look that basically said "Are you daft, woman?"

So I was like, "Okay...."

I felt like something was not-so-right then.

Suddenly my dad came into my room, and I quote what he asked us:

"Did you guys feel the house shake just now?"

Anis and I started screaming. My dad got a bit angry la cause we were acting so childish. But we couldn't help it. We were panicking! All sort of thoughts were going through my head at the time. Was it an earthquake? is there a tsunami?

And then like 20 minutes after that, we found out that there was a 6.1-magnitude earthquake in Sumatera, apparently 500 km away.

Can you just imagine that? We actually felt tremors from an earthquake that happened 500 km away. -__-

And it came out in the news the next morning that some parts of Klang Valley and Melaka felt the tremors from the Sumatera earthquake.

So yeah, it was a scary thing. Even when I think about it now, it was quite funny how I was like so selamba about the whole thing when it happened.

Luckily it was just like minor tremors.

The world is such a scary place nowadays.

Even the rain is scary nowadays. -_____- There was one day when i was driving and the rain was so bad that even at 4.30 PM, it looked like it was 7.30 already.

OH MY GOD.

I.FELT.TREMORS.

It was so scary!!!!!!!!

Perceptions.

Perception:

immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment

I kinda realised how our lives basically revolve around perceptions.

And how scary perceptions can be.

I was thinking about perceptions cause the topic suddenly came up while I was having lunch with Liyana. We were just talking about universities in general and I told her about my perceptions on private unis/colleges back when I was in school.

Coming from a government school, I really thought that if you were in places like HELP and Sunway (and Monash, to a certain degree) or any private universities for that matter, it means that you're not smart enough to enter public varsities. And that people who enter private universities are all snobbish brats who are literally buying their degrees and that it doesn't matter if they fail cause they can always retake the units that they failed.

Now that I'm in Monash, basically I had just classified myself as a person who's, well...dumb, spoilt and couldn't care less about education, when in fact I'm studying like nobody's business, my social life is pretty much non-existent and my stress level is at an all-time high.

Now I'm scared about how people perceive me.

I know I shouldn't be worried about people's perception as long as I'm comfortable with who I am, but i still wonder. Especially the perception of people from my parents' generation.

Like what my mum said, "They grew up thinking that if you study in private unis, you're not good enough for public unis. It might not be true, but they don't know that now, do they?"

It's funny to think that I've become exactly what I didn't want to be back in secondary school.

Irony is bittersweet, no?

PS: Just so I'll scare myself silly and take time to study:




Flash Countdown

Drives....

I took these pictures on one of the many drives that my family has gone for over the past couple of weeks. Everytime we go for these drives, I'll be looking outside, just soaking in the surroundings and I feel contented.

The valleys, the clouds, the beaches, the trees, the roads, the occasional cows (hihi). I love looking at them.

And I come to a conclusion: I absolutely LOVE going for drives.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to just....drive, you know. I'd like to feel how driving feels when it's for the sake of driving and not because it's a mean of transportation that gets you from place to place.

One day I'd really like to go for a roadtrip around Malaysia where I don't have to worry about exams, assignments and life in general.

Right now, I would say that if I were to be given a perfect birthday present, it would be the chance to go and drive around Malaysia with a few of my closest friends. Or maybe next birthday I'd like to have enough money to go on the roadtrip! =)

I'm also still waiting for the day when someone drives me around and announces spontaneously, "Hey, let's go for a drive to PD/Melaka/wherever just for fun".

Problem is, I think I'll be the one announcing that, and I'll be getting the "is-this-girl-serious?" look by the person that I made the announcement, too.

In my head right now, I have this sort of like a Hollywood-esque, "romanticised" version of a roadtrip where there are practically no cars on the road, no tolls and the roads are full with gorgeous landscapes that is just nice on the eyes.

But I'm a realist (I think pessimist might be better), and I know that if I want to go for a roadtrip in Malaysia, I must go on weekdays, must take the ridiculous toll rate into consideration (cause jalan kampung's quite the scary nowadays), must NEVER go during festivals, and must never go alone. And I think I better have enough money, or else I'll get stranded cause I got no petrol money.

Haih.

If only I could just go away for one day.

I really wish I could.

*sigh*