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DAVID COOK WON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!!!

Me loves my David Cookie! He sooo deserved to win (even though he wasn't so good during the finale!). Oh well, he still won by 12 MILLION votes, but who's counting? ;-)

Go Cookie!!!!

Oh, and I have started to study for my exams.

I don't mind exams, but I hate Accounting Info System. Dahla stupid unit has no bloody past years that I can bloody refer to, which makes me bloody annoyed.

I mean, why do I have to know how to read Data-Flow Diagrams and Flowcharts if I'm going to be an accountant? I thought doing Computing back in A-Levels was horrible enough. Didn't know it will come back to haunt me after 2 years. -_________-

Luckily some parts of the units (where we actually use Microsoft Excel instead of learning theories about God knows what) is not so bad for me because I use Microsoft Excal like every week for my Econometrics major, so at least I understand that. Too bad that's only 1/3 of the whole unit. 8 units are pure theories. Haih.

And I am so glad I'm not taking Finance as my major. I've been put off Finance for life after being forced to take Financial Management cause both Accounting and Finance majors are supposed to take this and the AIS units.

Dah la the exams are like next to each other. Financial Management on the 10th, AIS on the 11th.

You know what? I had to actually force myself to go and study in uni on a Saturday because I know I wouldn't be studying had I stayed at home. And I had to study.

It was okay la studying in uni cause there weren't a lot of people in the library just now.

I'm actually planning on going to uni everyday to study until the 11th of June because there is just so much to study and I waste a lot of time at home. (But then again, I did end up sleeping in the library for half an hour yesterday. Whoops.)

See me no life. Boohoo.

Oh yeah, and about the tremor thing in the previous post, what happened was this:

It was like 10 something on Monday, and I was chatting with Ine I think when I suddenly felt like something was shaking. At first I thought Anis was shaking the table or something like that.

So I asked her, quite nonchalantly la, "Eh, did you feel some shaking?"

and she was like, "Yeahhhh..."

And I asked her, "You sure you didn't shake the table?"

And she gave me this one look that basically said "Are you daft, woman?"

So I was like, "Okay...."

I felt like something was not-so-right then.

Suddenly my dad came into my room, and I quote what he asked us:

"Did you guys feel the house shake just now?"

Anis and I started screaming. My dad got a bit angry la cause we were acting so childish. But we couldn't help it. We were panicking! All sort of thoughts were going through my head at the time. Was it an earthquake? is there a tsunami?

And then like 20 minutes after that, we found out that there was a 6.1-magnitude earthquake in Sumatera, apparently 500 km away.

Can you just imagine that? We actually felt tremors from an earthquake that happened 500 km away. -__-

And it came out in the news the next morning that some parts of Klang Valley and Melaka felt the tremors from the Sumatera earthquake.

So yeah, it was a scary thing. Even when I think about it now, it was quite funny how I was like so selamba about the whole thing when it happened.

Luckily it was just like minor tremors.

The world is such a scary place nowadays.

Even the rain is scary nowadays. -_____- There was one day when i was driving and the rain was so bad that even at 4.30 PM, it looked like it was 7.30 already.

OH MY GOD.

I.FELT.TREMORS.

It was so scary!!!!!!!!

Perceptions.

Perception:

immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment

I kinda realised how our lives basically revolve around perceptions.

And how scary perceptions can be.

I was thinking about perceptions cause the topic suddenly came up while I was having lunch with Liyana. We were just talking about universities in general and I told her about my perceptions on private unis/colleges back when I was in school.

Coming from a government school, I really thought that if you were in places like HELP and Sunway (and Monash, to a certain degree) or any private universities for that matter, it means that you're not smart enough to enter public varsities. And that people who enter private universities are all snobbish brats who are literally buying their degrees and that it doesn't matter if they fail cause they can always retake the units that they failed.

Now that I'm in Monash, basically I had just classified myself as a person who's, well...dumb, spoilt and couldn't care less about education, when in fact I'm studying like nobody's business, my social life is pretty much non-existent and my stress level is at an all-time high.

Now I'm scared about how people perceive me.

I know I shouldn't be worried about people's perception as long as I'm comfortable with who I am, but i still wonder. Especially the perception of people from my parents' generation.

Like what my mum said, "They grew up thinking that if you study in private unis, you're not good enough for public unis. It might not be true, but they don't know that now, do they?"

It's funny to think that I've become exactly what I didn't want to be back in secondary school.

Irony is bittersweet, no?

PS: Just so I'll scare myself silly and take time to study:




Flash Countdown

Drives....

I took these pictures on one of the many drives that my family has gone for over the past couple of weeks. Everytime we go for these drives, I'll be looking outside, just soaking in the surroundings and I feel contented.

The valleys, the clouds, the beaches, the trees, the roads, the occasional cows (hihi). I love looking at them.

And I come to a conclusion: I absolutely LOVE going for drives.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to just....drive, you know. I'd like to feel how driving feels when it's for the sake of driving and not because it's a mean of transportation that gets you from place to place.

One day I'd really like to go for a roadtrip around Malaysia where I don't have to worry about exams, assignments and life in general.

Right now, I would say that if I were to be given a perfect birthday present, it would be the chance to go and drive around Malaysia with a few of my closest friends. Or maybe next birthday I'd like to have enough money to go on the roadtrip! =)

I'm also still waiting for the day when someone drives me around and announces spontaneously, "Hey, let's go for a drive to PD/Melaka/wherever just for fun".

Problem is, I think I'll be the one announcing that, and I'll be getting the "is-this-girl-serious?" look by the person that I made the announcement, too.

In my head right now, I have this sort of like a Hollywood-esque, "romanticised" version of a roadtrip where there are practically no cars on the road, no tolls and the roads are full with gorgeous landscapes that is just nice on the eyes.

But I'm a realist (I think pessimist might be better), and I know that if I want to go for a roadtrip in Malaysia, I must go on weekdays, must take the ridiculous toll rate into consideration (cause jalan kampung's quite the scary nowadays), must NEVER go during festivals, and must never go alone. And I think I better have enough money, or else I'll get stranded cause I got no petrol money.

Haih.

If only I could just go away for one day.

I really wish I could.

*sigh*

I had another assignment to submit this week, which kinda explains why I was MIA.

(I was also just plain lazy to blog. Hahaha)

I don't mind doing assignments, but the assignments are kinda taking my study time away and it is so annoying cause exams are not that far away and I'm trying to understanding the units just so I could do the assignments, and I have to relearn everything when exam comes. Blargh.

Like even right now, I'm so blur about like 75% of the things I've learnt.

And it's really funny how people always expect me to have the answers to all the assignment questions. I have people approaching me from every corner asking me to help with assignments. I really wonder there's an unseen sign/arrow pointing at me that says, "I KNOW THE ANSWERS! ASK ME!". It's nice when I can tell people I do have the answers, but it's so annoying when I don't cause they put me up on a pedestal, think I can do no wrong, and expect me to have an answer even though I'm just as clueless as them. Haih. And I'm really scared if what I teach people are wrong. Nanti ajar orang ajaran sesat. Aiyo.

Oh, I got back one of my mid-sem results and one assignment results. It was satisfying, overall, and even though I knew I could have done better, I just have to wait until exams to make up for the lost marks I guess.

So anyways, enough about Monash.

Last Sunday my dad took the whole family up to Bukit Tinggi for a picnic/drive.

There was nothing much to do there, and by the time we got there it was already like 3, so we only went around looking at houses that were for sale, and went to the Rabbit Park. The rabbits were so cute and so manja! Much better than we went last time, when they were a bunch of hostile bunnies waiting for us there. :| Hostile bunnies are scary!!!!

Our picnic spot:

Queens of the world....(we wish!)

Random pictures of the view in Bukit Tinggi...




And pictures at the Rabbit Park! =D

My sisters the rabbit-tamers...


Adorable, no?

The rabbit is super-adorable! =)

Okay, me needs tos gos. Me has tos gos tos dinners tonights.

Ciaos, peoples.

(It's all Nat's fault for making me go all sssss. Even when I talk now I go, me needs tos gos and i annoy myself sometimes)

Crash and Burn

My tests were ridiculously hard. -___-'

I studied really hard for the two tests, it was almost like I was studying for my finals.

I read like every single lecture carefully that I seriously felt like I could answer any questions they throw at me.

But oh boy, was I wrong.

I think I could only do like 60% of the questions. And I was totally befuddled.

It's damn annoying. I need the marks, dammit.

I was stressed before the tests, during the tests and even after the tests.

But oh well. What's done is done, right?

So anyways, since it's going to be my dad's birthday tomorrow today (1st of May) and Alwani's birthday on the 2nd, Anis and I went to buy their cards and presents in Sunway Pyramid.

We had a sort of early dinner at 5 oclock since I forgot to eat lunch (I never forget lunch, okay?) cause I was too busy studying for my Financial Management test and so I was really hungry by the time we got to Carls Jr. The food was yummyyyyyy. Finally, I got to eat something other than the expensive Monash cafeteria food. I am bored of the food in Monash.

Since it's the end of the month, Anis and I were a bit quite broke la, but we still managed to buy the birthday cards and gifts. After buying all the gifts, we went around Sunway Pyramid and found this small section of Sunway Pyramid called Asian Avenue, which reminded us of shops in Sungei Wang and the malls in Shenzhen, where there were these small quirky shops, and I saw loads of things that I liked. I was going mad because I didn't have the money to splurge on anything. Rawr.

I think that had I not been broke, in my stressed-out state, I would have bought everything that I had set my eyes on. Even now, Anis and I are going "We're so coming back next week". Good thing Pyramid's near Monash and Sun-U. Or maybe that's bad, cause I really have the urge to splurge right now.

And fyi, I'm a very impulsive buyer and I tend to buy stuff that I don't need and usually don't use.

Dear Lord, HELP ME!

Oh, by the way, I just realised that I have an assignment due next week, and 2 more assignments are due 2 weeks after that and in 5 weeks time my exams will start. In this small space of time, I have to understand everything from A to Z for the 4 units I'm taking, do my tutorials and still attend the lectures.

Is it any wonder why I'm going nuts?

Oh, and while I was studying for my Fin.Mgmt Test, I suddenly felt like the most appropriate to describe mysself at that point was that I was near the point where I was going to crash and burn.
And then I remembered about an old Savage Garden's song called (surprise, surprise) Crash and Burn. So I went on Youtube and looked up the song. And I relaxed a bit after listening to the song. Hahaha.

Here's the chorus to the song:

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Fine, it sounds more like the song is dedicated to people who are depressed instead of stressed, but it's nice to know that Darren Hayes is singing that he'll lift me up and fly away with me into the night. But then again, he's gay. Hahahahaha.

I'm rambling, aren't I? No surprise there.

OK, I need some sleep. Like now.

Nite, people! =)

PS: When I was distracted on Youtube, I watched THIS clip about this ventroloquist called Jeff Dunham and his doll called Achmed the Dead Terrorist. It's a bit offensive la, but it's DAMN funny! I laughed my head off watching it. It's a bit of a stress-reliever for me. Teehee.

Take a look at it! It's funny!