Merdeka?

Songs currently stuck in head - Lene Marlin's Unforgivable Sinner and Panic! At The Disco's I Write Sins, Not Tragedies

Omigod, look at this, isn't it cute?



Since Merdeka Day is coming, I've pondered on what I've done to merdekakan myself....and I realised that getting my license and going to college was a small step towards my own independence. My cousin Tisha had finally obtained her license, after what seems like forever, the same day that I got my A-Levels results. Now she can drive me around. She's so happy that she's able to drive everywhere now...and it kinda reminds me of how I felt when I first got my license 14 months ago. The initial euphoria that I felt when I first held my license and the extreme giddiness that gets to me whenever I looked at my license. The reality that I, the number one penakut on the planet, am now qualified to take on the big, bad roads of KL. Yeah, I know, I know, I'm overdramatising the situation. I remembered when I first started driving to college, my friends were like, "oh, you'll get bored of driving soon, believe me. I give you three months, top." And I was like, "NOOOOOO, I will never hate driving. How dare you say such a thing?" I felt that with the license in hand, I am now more in control of my life and that I have the liberty of going anywhere I want. Actually, I got bored of driving after 6 months. Yep, I'm eating my words now. Pfft. I realised that the older we get, the lazier we get, too. And once you do something that you love every single day, it becomes pretty monotonous. Now, even the KL jam doesn't scare me anymore....that's how immune I am to the fear of driving. Someone once asked me, "If you had to choose between being in the driver's seat or the passenger's seat for your whole life, which one would you choose?" In a heartbeat I answered, "Driver's seat" but now, looking back, I'm not so sure....but on second thought, I love driving too much to be in the passenger's seat for the rest of my life. Selfishness. Haha.

Oh yeah, Happy Merdeka Day, peeps! I'm out!

I was looking around the internet for information on when One Tree Hill is coming back, but no luck (yeah, I'm pathetic!)...however, I stumbled on Peyton Sawyer's (Hilarie Burton) official Myspace page. According to that page, she's supposed to be born after me....1st of July or somethign like that...and it's just damn funny because the 18 year olds I know are not like tha ones that I see on One Tree Hill. I know, I know, I'm rambling again.

Moving on, my dad was supposed to go to Europe on the 31st (Merdeka day!)for a Doctor's conference in Barcelona but he's thinking of cancelling the trip. The reason's because of the current tight security in Europe. Bloody terrorists. If you're Asian, Muslim or have some semblence of a beard, you're in big trouble. Trouble is, my dad fits the damn description. My dad was telling me that some people got ejected off the plane because they're Muslims and looked kinda suspicious. And women are not spared. This woman and her children also got booted off a plane because people got paranoid that she might be carrying bombs somewhere. I mean, hello?????? You think this woman is crazy enough is it to bring her kids along when a bomb is hidden somewhere on her body? Wait, considering how screwed up our brains can be, that might be a possiblity...but whatever. My dad won't even be able to take in his laptop with him onboard because they don't allow any hand luggage in. So my dad thinks it's just not worth the hassle. I think it's for the best, too. That's damn sad, though, cause I really wanted something from Spain! ;)

Oh yeah, I'm feeling very baik nowadays, and I'm thinking of doing volunteering work la. But dunno wat to do. I've been looking at the Raleigh International website and the things they do are quite interesting, but I'm not sure if I'm up for that. Maybe I should start working soon.

Currently reading - Labyrinth (Kate Mosse)

My results were bad....really bad. I was devastated. I cried. And cried. And I cried some more. I cried in the car, I cried on my dad. Habis his shirt, wet with my tears. At least I got one A as a consolation. These bad results hit me right in the gut. Granted, I never was a straight A student, but usually I would have been able to get at least B's....not this time, though...I felt like I disappointed my parents. What's more, I know I've disappointed myself. :( Now I have to do well in my IELTS. I've already wasted my parents money once, I'm not going to let that happen again. I guess I will be going to Monash, then...since I can't go to a lot of the other places. I feel like such a loser. I feel like tearing up again.

Reminiscing

Currently listening to: Michelle Branch's All You Wanted

Was listening to Hitz.fm while driving just now, and I just happened to listened to the Graduation song by Vitamin C and I just realised that it's been almost 2 years since I've finished schooling. I realised that I've changed a lot in the last couple of years, so I'm going to try think of how I was like 2 years ago and how different I am now compared to back then.

2 YEARS AGO, I was busy studying (and panicking) for my SPM trials and subsequently, the real SPM exam.
NOW, I'm damn worried about my IELTS test in 2 weeks time as I just realised how horrendous it can be for someone with such a short attention span like me to stay focused for the Listening test. Damn. Guess some things never do change.

2 YEARS AGO, I couldn't wait to get out of school.
NOW, I wish I was back in school. :(

2 YEARS AGO, I wanted to fit in with everyone.
NOW, I don't even care anymore.

2 YEARS AGO, I was jealous of everyone in the driver's seat.
NOW, I am jealous of everyone in the passenger's seat when I'm in the driver's seat.

2 YEARS AGO, I dreamt of driving to a lot of places in Malaysia with no worries whatsoever.
NOW, with the escalating price of petrol, I know that driving to the places itself will cause the headache. And I'm just too lazy. I drive an average of 60 km a day and it's already killing me. But I still dream about driving with a suitcase, a map and plenty of petrol and moolah and just drive around the country.

2 YEARS AGO, I thought my whole life depended on passing my SPM.
NOW, I realised that it's ok to fail sometimes.

2 YEARS AGO, I didn't curse much.
NOW, I curse frequently, even though I use "milder" words rather than the f word. ;)

2 YEARS AGO, I didn't have a boyfriend.
NOW, I still don't have a boyfriend. haha. My, how things have changed. NOT.

2 YEARS AGO, I didn't know what I would be doing after school.
NOW, I have a better idea of what I want to do.

2 YEARS AGO, I'm a bit shy to go in front of a camera.
NOW, I'm getting better at it. I can be a camwhore when I want to. ;)

2 YEARS AGO, I had a blog but I abandoned it.
NOW, I'm back to blogging and it's fun, fun, fun! :D

Looking at the list above, I guess some things have changed, and some things still remain the same. Whatever it is, I think I'm a better person now, or so I hope. But whatever la. Oh yeah, yesterday I went to the launching of the Perak Ladies Club's (PLC) Youth Bureau at De Palma Hotel in Ampang. Anis' friend, Kimmy, invited us to go so Anis and I went la. It's quite funny because Anis wants to join but technically, we are not from Perak and I don't think we have any Perak blood sesat in us. But you can join as long as you're not married and under 25 years old. Oh yeah, I said it was the Perak LADIES Club's Youth Bereau, right? But what's damn funny about the bureau is that the president is a guy. Haha.

Do I have anything else to write about? Don't think so...I'm damn tired....my sleep has been damn irregular and I don't like it when it's time for my VIP (very important period) to come. I always have this mood swings and I become very snappy.

Oh yeah, Siti Nurhaliza's getting married next week. Whoopee.

Time for me to move on to better things (sleep!!!!!!!)

byebye

I see bad results...

I just got this email sent to me by Jasmine from the A-Levels Department in HELP, confirming what I've heard from my friend:

Dear A43-44 Class Reps,
Your final results will be out on 18 August. Kindly collect your results at the Registry 1. You're expected to bring along your Student ID.

Should you want to repeat some units in the next Jan7 examination session, the procedure is as follows,
1. Fill in the decline cash-in form. Decline the cash-in of all your subjects.
2. Your exam registration period for Jan07 : 23 - 30 August
3. Remember to re-cash-in for all your subjects when you register for the Jan07 examination.

We're in the midst of contacting all of you with regards to where you'll be going to after the A-Levels. Would appreciate if you can let us know the details.

All the best!
Jasmine


Instead of "I see dead people" like in The Sixth Sense, I think I see bad results.

plain nonsense

One question: If someone who paints is a painter, someone who drives is a driver and someone who blogs is a blogger, then how come someone who draws isn't a drawer? Or someone who cooks isn't a cooker? Or someone who sews is not a sewer? Kinda makes you think, doesn't it?

My IELTS exam is on the 2nd of September so I'm kinda brushing up on my English right now so that's why I asked that question. haha. Stupid IELTS test would be on a Saturday at 8.15 am!!!!!!!!!!! Boo-hoo! I don't mind waking up early on a weekday, but on a weekend..... I don't even know how to prepare for the exam! But that's ok....i'm going for the IELTS workshop next week!

Talking about exams, A-Levels results are coming out next Thursday/Friday!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't think it has sunk in yet, because frankly, I don't feel anything. No worries, no nothing. Yet. I know I'll be having a panic attack though when I go back to HELP next week to pick up the results. I just hope I don't fail anything.

Shit, I'm starting to feel a little bit scared right now. That is just soooooooooooo great.

You know what I've realised? In the newspapers these past few weeks, other than the news about the Lebanon-Israel bombing, which had killed lots of civilians including innocent children and had made Lebanon's Prime Minister Fuad Siniora pled tearfully to the Israelis to ceasefire immediately, are the news about bloggers' freedom, or more specifically, the "abuse" of freedom by bloggers. A blogger in the US is already going to jail and even back home, bloggers can easily be on their way to jail if someone reports that the posts on their blogs are giving out "misleading information" about the government, etc, etc. Isn't a blog supposed to be a place where someone can post their thoughts and share their opinions with the world? So what if we do write misleading information? Half of the things on the internet is crap anyways, so it doesn't really matter, right? And please la...it's not like our government tak corrupted. We are all corrupted in one way or another. And cyberspace is the only place where a Malaysian can really be heard...maybe the government should think about that.

I'm really tired.......still have a long day tomorrow...i'm off to Dreamland...wonder who I'll see tonight in my dreams...

I'm back online!!!!! So happy!

My Streamyx is back on! Yay! I am the happiest person on earth right now!!!!!!!! My dad was so pissed because our house was still connectionless after 3 weeks, even after my mum and i called the TMNet people asking how the hell do we connect our Streamyx back manually, that he asked my uncle to come over to check out the problem. turns out that the router was fried, so yeah, that kinda messed up our whole internet connection. My dad and my uncle then went to Low Yat to find a new router in my newly-serviced car, so to cut a long story short, we have a brand-new router and the internet connection is back up! Thank God!!!!

Oh yeah, talking about my car, baby went for a routine servicing last Tuesday and I went to pick up the car yesterday. Since the car is in Shah Alam, and only my dad knew how to get to the place, my dad took me, with my sister Anis in tow, to the mechanic. This was actually the first time I rode in my dad's convertible with the top down on a sunny day and it was definitely an experience that is going to be tattooed into my brain. It was a 40-minute drive to get from my house to Shah Alam, so yeah, my hair was blowing into my face all the way from Bukit Antarabangsa to Shah Alam. My dad's average speed was about 100 km/h so even though i tied up possibly every single strand of hair on my head, my hair still manage to came loose so basically everybody stared at us because top-down convertibles on highways are quite scarce, and there i was, trying so hard to look nonchalant, as if i'm used to getting hair blown straight into my face. People were just gawking at us, no shame you know. Damn obvious pulak tu. Malaysians. Pffft. Some of the drivers can turn and stare at us and I wonder, "are they even looking at where they're going?" Thanks to the natural "hairdryer", by the time we reached the mechanics place, my usually frizzy but manageable hair became flat and unmanageable hair. I 've always wanted to have straight hair, so I guess I did get what I wanted. hehe.

Oh yeah, while we are still on the subject of cars and the total jakun-nessof rakyat Malaysia, I have yet another story on prove that Malaysian, in general, are too damn curious for their own good. Last Monday, I had to go back to Kelantan to accompany my grandma to pick up my greatgrandma's maid, who had just suffered a stroke. The maid is an illegal maid, although she does have a valid passport, so she can't fly, neither can she take the bus back to KL. Some more, if anything happens to her while airborne or on the bus, who's gonna be responsible? So, my aunt my grandma and I went back to Kelantan in my uncle's Multipla. Once we reached Kelantan, everytime we stopped, someone would go up to my aunt's driver and asked about the car and I was like, what the hell? Even at the petrol station, while the driver was filling up the car, people came and asked about the car but mostly, people just stared. And stared. And stared. Did I mentio they stared at us like we were some kind of aliens from outer space? The Kelantan trip was quite tiring for me, because we set off from KL on Monday at 3 in the afternoon, and we reached our relative's house, where the maid was staying at 10.30 at night. And we didn't go to sleep right after that, nooooo, the women (my aunt, my grandma and the hostess) decided to gossip about our relatives....it was quite interesting what i learnt about my relatives. When we went to bed it was almost 2 a.m. We started off for KL at 9 o'clock Tuesday morning and arrived back at 5 pm. I was dead tired!!!!!! When I reached home, I plunked myself onto my bed and slept till the next morning.

Oh, Mega Sale is on!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to buy some new, cheap stuff....some more I discovered this cheap place with clothes on discounts everywhere in the store!!!!!!! I was looking through lots and lots of clothes just now, but I didn't buy anything yet cause I don't have that much money on me right now. I did buy a pair of slippers, though! And it was quite funny cause while we were there at the shop, (where my sister bought this long dress for only RM 150!) we met with our aunt and uncle. My aunt was there to buy some clothes since everything was so cheap! Oh yeah, sorry if I seem selfish, but I don't want people to know the name of the place because I don't want a lot of people to go there....as if tak banyak orang la sekarang...

Okie, time for me to go off

buhbye