Self-indulgence...

I remembered a few weeks ago, I read an article in the newspapers about the blogging craze. The writer said that bloggers nowadays are becoming more self-indulgent. Here's my opinion. So what if we are a bit self-indulgent? Isn't it better to talk about ourselves rather than talk about other people (and end up hurting them in the process)? At least when we talk about ourselves, the facts are accurate! A blog is where a person can express their opinions, show their creativity, overdramatise little things (haha!), post up pictures of themselves and just generally talk about stuff. A blog is where a person can just be themselves, with no pretenses whatsoever. People put up facades in real life, and a blog is usually where they strip down to their true self. And anyways, not all blogs are self-indulgent, okay? Some bloggers talk about food (like Masak-masak), some post up cute photos (Cuteoverload.com!) and some post up celebrity news (Pink Is The New Blog!). So, if I am a bit self-indulgent at times, I'm sorry, but hey, this is my blog, and if you don't like me being a bit self-indulgent, then don't read it la! No one forced you to read my blog in the first place! :P

Oh yeah, talking about being self-indulgent, I did this test on the Handwriting Wizard website to analyse my handwriting....look at what I found out about myself:

Alia has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Alia's y or g is large and has triangle shape to the lower loop. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Alia has regarding sex and physical things. Her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop has a triangle shape, this indicates a particular curiosity with certain aspects of sexuality. In a nutshell, Alia is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once. I'd say Alia is quite a dynamic and playful lover. Watch out world! (That's interesting, because I don't think about sex. Dynamic and playful lover? Me? Hahahahahahaha!)

Alia exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Alia allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Alia has a vivid imagination. (Yep, that's me. Too much daydreaming and too gullible...not too sure about the storytelling trait, though...)

Something is incomplete in Alia's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Alia's sexual needs. (OK, if I never had sex means that I'm sexually frustrated, then yes, this is true. But again, I don't think about sex!!!!)

Alia is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. (Oh My God, isn't that the truth?)

Alia's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Alia that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Alia also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Alia is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Alia's self-concept is artificially low. Alia will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Alia to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Alia is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken. (Yeah, that's true...:( )

Because Alia has sharp needle pointed 'm' and 'n' humps, she has a very sharp mind. She instantly sizes up situations, making instant decisions. She thinks and evaluates circumstances very rapidly. Many people with this type of mind are geniuses, thus she may be seen as highly intelligent. Alia is often irritated by slow talkers or slow thinkers. If she drives, she gets irritated by slow drivers in the fast lane. She quickly becomes bored when being taught on the level of the slowest student in class. She may be on problem number three when the rest of the class is on problem one. Alia is curious and very active. In fact, in school she might have been a trouble maker because she thought so much faster than the other kids, she finished her work first, thus having plenty of time on her hands to make trouble! (Genius? Moi? hahahaha! Oh man, that's damn funny! This one is a definite spot-on! I get damn frustrated when people drive slow in the fast lane! And I am a VERY curious person! Yeah, and I do get bored easily when "being taught on the level of the slowest student in class"...hey, they make it sound like I'm a very impatient person. Wait, I am impatient!)

Regarding honesty, she is basically honest with a tendency to lie in certain circumstances. This results from a combination of secretiveness (the desire to keep things private) and self deceit (the desire to not accept something in her life at the moment). She deliberately strays from or evades the truth. She feels the truth is not what she wants people to know. This is not always bad. Have you ever known a good secretary that could not say "the Boss isn't in", when the Boss is standing next to the phone? When Alia is in a position that she can't find a truthful way out, she might prevaricate. (See? Little white lies are okay once in a while!)

Alia uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Alia does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Alia will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Alia is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Alia doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Oh yeah, since my mum's birthday is coming (September 11th!) and we couldn't celebrate Zara's birthday last week because Iskandar had his UPSR the day after, we're having a joint celebration tomorrow and I'm in charge of planning the bash! So I have to go now....have to run off to buy stuff for tomorrow night!